I should stop biting my lips.

Today I visited my brother at work and then had a sushi lunch with my mother and sister. Later I went on a walk. I was thinking about everything and then nothing at all. I had to call the library to see if they were currently holding Lolita, and they weren't. I showed a picture of my ex-boyfriend to my five year old cousin and asked her if she thought he was pretty. She shook her head and laughed saying ,"boys aren't pretty, they're handsome!" Then I asked her if she thought he was handsome and she agreed with wide eyes! She's a smart cookie.

Look at these.

And I really should stop biting my lips, especially in this cold weather.

everything is falling and i am included in that.

Christmas time and December in general are not a good time of the year for me. I get sad, more sad than the rest of the year it seems. Yesterday I got to go to a holiday party held by my brother's friend. There were a lot of people there, some I don't see anymore so that was fun. I met some really nice people, while others were just plain annoying. My thoughts on Christmas are similar to those of Charlie Brown in A Charlie Brown Christmas.

"I think there must be something wrong with me, Linus. Christmas is coming, but I'm not happy. I don't feel the way I'm supposed to feel. I just don't understand Christmas, I guess. I like getting presents and sending Christmas cards and decorating trees and all that, but I'm still not happy. I always end up feeling depressed."



I miss him, but off to Candy Cane Lane with my friends.

ctm

For You, Forever Ago

soon to come

The past three months of my life

Before school was let out the Junior Drama Academy was given their parts in A Midsummer Night's Dream. I was cast as Titania and Hippolyta, but I also play a fairy. Anyway, our location changed a few times and finally (a week before the performances started) we re-blocked the entire show from in-the-round to proscenium. I've really learned a lot throughout the whole process, about others and myself. I wish that I could do another performance, especially because of all the hardwork put into it. But, Titania is a character that I look forward to playing again. Until then, I have to try to get back to this life I once had? I am ready for break and time to relax, although there probably won't be any of that going on. I can't wait to see all my little cousins and big cousins too, oh! and San Francisco. But first, we must decorate this house, starting with getting a tree!